I haven't written in a while. I miss it.
I'm 24 with no clue as to what I'm doing. I dye my eyebrows too dark on purpose. I like avocado and hummus more than is strictly normal and have a slight obsession with 24 hours in A and E. I wonder if I'm actually making a difference to the children in my class. I hope I am. I am the most competitive person you will meet; I rule at Monopoly for this very reason. I strongly believe that second place is a first place loser. There are times where I'm still extremely angry about the past. I over think too much and that's why I don't sleep- not for any of the other reasons I may tell people- it's because I wake up in a cold sweat thinking about everything that could go wrong. I have huge regrets. Topshop jeans are the only ones that fit my huge bum and oddly long legs. i have the best friends and boyfriend- they are the people that keep me sane, one of my best friends called me to say she was having a poo when my dad was diagnosed with cancer; that was the only thing that made me smile in about a month. There are days where I can't stand to see the person staring back at me in the mirror. Those days I wish I could still run. There are dreams I've given up on, because I figure I'm an adult now and don't have time for them. Lilies are my favourite flower, and Alien is my perfume of choice. I have 50 odd pairs of shoes, and wear about 6 on a regular basis. Likewise with nail varnish,I'm practically a hoarder. I'm scared that people will figure me out and that I'll die alone having had all my cats eat me. There are nights where I sleep with a stuffed bear so that I have something to hold on to. I've given up sugar in my tea and decided that tea is rank without it, but because I'm stubborn I keep drinking it anyway. I miss being young. I miss not having responsibilities and when my biggest concern was what to have for breakfast, now I don't even have time to breathe, let alone eat. I love the rain. Frozen is a masterpiece. McBusted were the highlight of my May
I haven't written in a while. I miss it.
